2009-09-15, 11:47:30
i want to withdraw my earlier apology for cussing out people for not adding their cfg files. now that i know that veloc cares about this map as much or more as me. i think he was a total fucking idiot for not realizing his potential for helping further the map at an insanely high rate when i was hosting with my ghost bot. hehe! 
veloc. if you really want to get what u want then u must put aside petty lies to yourself and just really follow your dreams and sacrifice all that u can afford to including peace of mind. because what once gave you peace of mind can cause you anguish later on if it is at odds with what you truly desire and know to be good. in other words, don't kill the messenger. you can chastise me or others all you want but in the end it's yourself that you have to live with, not me. just think of all the players we lost when i was the only global hoster and i didn't have a cfg file for the map? even today, the players in lordaeron are only 1/5 what they used to be when i was hosting globally.
when will some one else truly take my shoes and fullfill the role i was in? i would redo everything i did totally and completely if i just had the time. i only have time to just barely play and do a bit of advising right now. every onece and a while i inspire some one to ghost host still from time to time. but no one's really understood completely just what i was doing. doesn't anyone see how i was overtaking dota with friendliness, openness, and honesty? won't anyone who has just a little bit more free time try to do the same thing? i'm telling you right now, dota is totally inferior. i proved it almost. but i just ran into financial and time trouble. so many saw the stats. so many saw the partial possibilities but not the whole picture. won't anyone let go of their fear and boundries and embrace it all?
**edit: beware of blizzard updates. if u truly want to learn from my mistakes then befriend icefrog and get one step ahead of the blizzard updates. we'll need a friend inside to truly get on an even playing field. head my warning or else perish as exo did.
veloc. if you really want to get what u want then u must put aside petty lies to yourself and just really follow your dreams and sacrifice all that u can afford to including peace of mind. because what once gave you peace of mind can cause you anguish later on if it is at odds with what you truly desire and know to be good. in other words, don't kill the messenger. you can chastise me or others all you want but in the end it's yourself that you have to live with, not me. just think of all the players we lost when i was the only global hoster and i didn't have a cfg file for the map? even today, the players in lordaeron are only 1/5 what they used to be when i was hosting globally.
when will some one else truly take my shoes and fullfill the role i was in? i would redo everything i did totally and completely if i just had the time. i only have time to just barely play and do a bit of advising right now. every onece and a while i inspire some one to ghost host still from time to time. but no one's really understood completely just what i was doing. doesn't anyone see how i was overtaking dota with friendliness, openness, and honesty? won't anyone who has just a little bit more free time try to do the same thing? i'm telling you right now, dota is totally inferior. i proved it almost. but i just ran into financial and time trouble. so many saw the stats. so many saw the partial possibilities but not the whole picture. won't anyone let go of their fear and boundries and embrace it all?
**edit: beware of blizzard updates. if u truly want to learn from my mistakes then befriend icefrog and get one step ahead of the blizzard updates. we'll need a friend inside to truly get on an even playing field. head my warning or else perish as exo did.
Why's the rothchild family crest and the illuminati symbol on my 1 dollar bill? Why do rich and powerful American "christian" leaders have gay sex and worship a giant 40 foot stone owl at Beach Grove every year? Why doesn't anyone care?
